What is My Life’s Purpose?

My life's purpose is to be fully present as the clear and awake living one of this personal form of God – to be fully aware our destiny is to live the journey of the awakening one – to stop the denial – to talk about – to tell others – to say how we feel – at all costs to tell ourselves this truth – to know without any reflection; that what is so for us, in regard to our understanding of God’s will for us . . . is truly what is so for us

We do not need to defend who we are – yet we do need to tell ourselves and those affected what is true for us – what we see and feel

Yes – to be the living awakening one in ourselves – to allow the journey of God to enter and live fully as our very will – to surrender to this allowance and feel it’s core movement - to speak us

God Of My Understanding

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Simply put - God is not the pain/body of man . . . which is made-up of the in and out of control - thoughts, actions and emotions in man - and Is, everything else.

What God is - is not completely understandable or knowable by us . . . and is not intended to be.

God is whole and manifested as all we as humans can see and know - and God is all we can’t and will never comprehend.

God’s play with and through us offers - and is universally available to us - to feel and abide in as union.

God is not separate from us - we do that with our pain/body thinking reacting mind - as a function of our immature free will.

God is not an entity - not a man or woman or have dimensional boundaries as we know the physical universe.

God has always existed and always will exist

Our limited search - of the 3 dimensional or whatever dimensional projected ideas by our minds - will never reveal God’s nature.

God’s intention is to allow us, as separate beings, to choose through our free will to live and grow into full feeling relationship understanding while we are alive - and to promote that full realization to each other.

God does not have thoughts or emotions like we assign based on our limited expierence and understanding as humans.

God has behavioral laws which are and always have been: which if aligned to allows greater knowing and experiencing of a functional living relationship with us.

Union with God is our reason for being.

God has and will and is always revealing the laws and directions for us to see, witness and expierence this Union

There is no such thing as time or space - there is only the Eternal present.

God did not design the universe - God is the universe.

Only our minds comprehend mistakenly the idea of separateness - birth and death.

God allows many different agents, teachers, and realizers to create the forms of worship - all limited, some more aligned and few - maybe only one messiah - Jesus of Nazareth - the Christ.

The best we can know, feel and comprehend is utter and complete Union with God.

This Union - alive as our truest confession of Being - is who we are designed to Be.

God’s intention is that we help others to know this - by practicing discipline of our free will, which we can learn through the stories and laws outlined in the Bible and possibly other texts and Spiritual practices. **

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** unedited from original spontaneous hand written piece as requested by my AA sponsor - 2003

Upon Awakening

Upon Awakening

I know you will understand this – and I wanted to share it with you

Thank you – I feel you there and it means so much.

You honor me with your time and attention – I am grateful you are listening – that, in and of itself, is very nurturing and incredibly supportive as we are connecting.

My intention is to be real: to be open, vulnerable, honest, clear, thorough but not dramatic, blaming or making excuses regarding any of my adolescent past choices and behaviors.

I would only ask for your genuine personal interest and greater cultural understanding of what is happening - - - not only to me but to so many others today - - - and I sense to you too - - - because you are reading this.

This entry in this blog is a way to initiate and to help me speak about and express the conscious process of Spiritual Awakening – which is a graceful option to choose - it will help me keep or to remerge my feeling of my whole bodily attention into awakened presence - because I forget who I am and go back asleep often.

I am a reluctant bhakti bodhisattva.

The primordial movement in my Being is to realize my whole authentic self - to consciously develop and complete my personal union with the all pervading presence of the living Divine life current - while discovering how I may contribute to other’s movement into their God union.

I am not trying to justify or rationalize my life to you – I just want you to travel with me and possibly come to know what I see and feel.

I know with all of my Heart and Soul that I am experiencing and am part of this global and deep Spiritual transfiguration happening more rapidly in these early 21st century days amongst our more spiritually conscious human culture – it is literally the emergence of a new human species - discovered through our attraction to direct personal experiences, practices and confessions of the presence of God.

I sense this has been at the root of my life's impulses and choices since the 60’s.

I am not alone – especially here in Northern California - many of us are aware we live in a very unique time in our social cultural environment and our Spiritual evolution - I am drawn to associate with others like myself – who intuit and understand these matters of this movement and our deep attraction to merge into full conscious Spiritual restedness with wisdom – we are being impulsed to learn, experience, serve, grow and to consciously work on and allow these transfigurations to occur in our personal primal nature.

I believe this alive organic movement is deep in the genetic code of our human form.

It is God’s intention and purpose to manifest our awakening.

Thank you for allowing me to work on and express all this – very clarifying.