Our Arising

Our arising, is the manifest conscious force field surrounding the whole Universe Itself: Individuated as Our personal selves simultaneously because we comprehend it so.

This conscious force field is the selfless/aspirant agape felt engine of Contraction & Birth which drives the existence of Universal Mind which created the Universe and all new manifestations as we motion out from our source.

This conscious field is individuated and mirrors the Initial thought of God in each of us simultaneously and propels us to know ourselves at and as this source; for all of our experiences in the condition of true eternal ever-new present awake ignorance.

Owning Your Tendencies - Understanding All Sides

Owning Your Tendencies -Understanding All Sides

Whenever we examine our lives, we examine them from a particular side or angle. Most of us tend to favor one side over the others. For example, we may tend to look at things from an emotional perspective rather than a financial perspective, or we may prefer to think in terms of details rather than the big picture, or vice versa. To a certain degree, this is not a problem, and these tendencies add color to our individual personalities. However, they can also make us one-sided, blind to the many other ways of looking at our situation. Even if we have decided that we are most happy when we focus on one particular side of things, it is always worth exploring the other sides. When we do, we become well rounded, more understanding of other viewpoints, and even more solid in our own.

Perhaps you are a person who tends to see your life in terms of your spiritual well-being. As a result, other concerns such as financial comfort or social standing may not be prominent in your mind as you make decisions. However, taking just a moment to consider those angles will help you in several ways. One, it will enable you to see more clearly what your priorities are and how they influence your life situation. Two, it will enhance your sense of confidence, because you will see your situation from all sides, even as you choose one. And three, it will help you communicate with others about who you are and what you are doing, because you will come from a place of understanding that your own biases and tendencies are unique as are theirs.

Most of us instinctively come at things from a particular angle, and in many cases this is the right way for us. Still, understanding the other angles only strengthens us. When we look at our lives from all sides, we shed light on the big picture, giving ourselves access to many points of view and highlighting more clearly the one we have chosen to take.*

* from July 31, 2009 - DailyOM

Immersion In The Desert

Still opening now deeper in this spirit pregnancy feels literally just like a developing fetus of assembling thoughts and expressions full in my solar plexus - warm, teaming with energy and joyous conscious life - - still staying as quite as I can to Be there/here; to just watch, Deeply Watch - in EVERY moment when I can - just for a while - (sooo much to see - so much is Here)- I am so deep now, - aware and watching our natural basic movement animate all of us at all times; this growing of ourselves as Itself: so informative a place I can rest into and allow the becoming to BE more real in my body truly!!!- I can actually feel the fine line of me/God in play with Itself - using me and all of my strengths, liabilities and visioning; in this Divine movement; to continue to develop and use me to express Itself whole, complete by receiving the most direct inoculation feeling of bodily Spirit into and as me - - - knowing there is not any other reality . . . I now know this more as All.

Friday, I drove into Death Valley knowing I would be asking directly for contact with Spirit; as Separate and distinct in the moment from my person. I have been having more courage to do this lately. Each time I do I receive such a immediate response that I have been too intimidated to ask for formal contact unless I really knew it was time and I did need validation. I have learned, over the years, to trust my impulse, especially when the surroundings, events or others move that way - then I know it is right.

Over the last year I have gained more certainty of evolution of Spirit individually, in local tribe and the worldwide Global culture. We all see the signs of the birthing of each of our own Being, as part of a greater Global Shift. Especially i share this growth with my fellow students and Choir members of Religious Science here at CSLSR.

It has been difficult to responsibly accept my own Being as the conscious residence of birthing my own Divine Spirit into my own living Divine Domain. Yet I do see it actively all around in others too. We, beyond our ego selves, are learning to discover, understand, manage and express our own authentic birthing our own Personal Spirit Presence. Each of us is living their own private personal Divine path of experience. This idea of th Unified Living Spirit is becoming more commonly acceptable in our 21st century adult culture and youth society now.

As I drove undisturbed without any stopping, 55mph on cruise control for 45 miles into the desert and became totally alone for 20 miles around; I felt this momentary clear greater nature of my own Being fill all of my senses so intensely almost blinding me with this speed of change instantaneously stretching me out so fine into all of the hills and desert such my vision consciously expanded horizontally with deep and utter visual acuteness to the finest detail of all hills; Immediately I saw my whole personal history as always having been a Spiritual incarnation process I was allowed to choose to follow out of attraction to Love and interest in us; I saw the undeniable connected series of human intimate trainings of my conscious self to see this moment in the 21st century of awakening Beings and to choose to Be and allow this truth to be felt as my Being Person - then I truly felt so deeply my personal Spiritual and true living presence as an active participant in spite of my remembering or knowing of Its presence or the ongoing process.

As I fell into Itself As All I Am without thinking I am:

"Only BEING That" as my true whole personal expression - - - my total Being consciously saw this truth and consciously allowed the truth of this feeling with the outrageous pride to be lived as that form of Spirit defaulted with gifted wisdom . . .and Now my accepting That by only consciously allowing this as YES this so of my direction of my Being and the greater culture! . . . I saw there was no way is it possible I can choose to be some other fictional character with a "complaint of not this or not that" as my Nature To Be Here.

Again: I was shown all I had to do was actually just Consciously Allow and Consciously accept I naturally function as a conscious Active Spiritual tool, in spite of any of my innocence and shoulder shrugging ignorance to it all:

And so it is

What is My Life’s Purpose?

My life's purpose is to be fully present as the clear and awake living one of this personal form of God – to be fully aware our destiny is to live the journey of the awakening one – to stop the denial – to talk about – to tell others – to say how we feel – at all costs to tell ourselves this truth – to know without any reflection; that what is so for us, in regard to our understanding of God’s will for us . . . is truly what is so for us

We do not need to defend who we are – yet we do need to tell ourselves and those affected what is true for us – what we see and feel

Yes – to be the living awakening one in ourselves – to allow the journey of God to enter and live fully as our very will – to surrender to this allowance and feel it’s core movement - to speak us

God Of My Understanding

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Simply put - God is not the pain/body of man . . . which is made-up of the in and out of control - thoughts, actions and emotions in man - and Is, everything else.

What God is - is not completely understandable or knowable by us . . . and is not intended to be.

God is whole and manifested as all we as humans can see and know - and God is all we can’t and will never comprehend.

God’s play with and through us offers - and is universally available to us - to feel and abide in as union.

God is not separate from us - we do that with our pain/body thinking reacting mind - as a function of our immature free will.

God is not an entity - not a man or woman or have dimensional boundaries as we know the physical universe.

God has always existed and always will exist

Our limited search - of the 3 dimensional or whatever dimensional projected ideas by our minds - will never reveal God’s nature.

God’s intention is to allow us, as separate beings, to choose through our free will to live and grow into full feeling relationship understanding while we are alive - and to promote that full realization to each other.

God does not have thoughts or emotions like we assign based on our limited expierence and understanding as humans.

God has behavioral laws which are and always have been: which if aligned to allows greater knowing and experiencing of a functional living relationship with us.

Union with God is our reason for being.

God has and will and is always revealing the laws and directions for us to see, witness and expierence this Union

There is no such thing as time or space - there is only the Eternal present.

God did not design the universe - God is the universe.

Only our minds comprehend mistakenly the idea of separateness - birth and death.

God allows many different agents, teachers, and realizers to create the forms of worship - all limited, some more aligned and few - maybe only one messiah - Jesus of Nazareth - the Christ.

The best we can know, feel and comprehend is utter and complete Union with God.

This Union - alive as our truest confession of Being - is who we are designed to Be.

God’s intention is that we help others to know this - by practicing discipline of our free will, which we can learn through the stories and laws outlined in the Bible and possibly other texts and Spiritual practices. **

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** unedited from original spontaneous hand written piece as requested by my AA sponsor - 2003

Upon Awakening

Upon Awakening

I know you will understand this – and I wanted to share it with you

Thank you – I feel you there and it means so much.

You honor me with your time and attention – I am grateful you are listening – that, in and of itself, is very nurturing and incredibly supportive as we are connecting.

My intention is to be real: to be open, vulnerable, honest, clear, thorough but not dramatic, blaming or making excuses regarding any of my adolescent past choices and behaviors.

I would only ask for your genuine personal interest and greater cultural understanding of what is happening - - - not only to me but to so many others today - - - and I sense to you too - - - because you are reading this.

This entry in this blog is a way to initiate and to help me speak about and express the conscious process of Spiritual Awakening – which is a graceful option to choose - it will help me keep or to remerge my feeling of my whole bodily attention into awakened presence - because I forget who I am and go back asleep often.

I am a reluctant bhakti bodhisattva.

The primordial movement in my Being is to realize my whole authentic self - to consciously develop and complete my personal union with the all pervading presence of the living Divine life current - while discovering how I may contribute to other’s movement into their God union.

I am not trying to justify or rationalize my life to you – I just want you to travel with me and possibly come to know what I see and feel.

I know with all of my Heart and Soul that I am experiencing and am part of this global and deep Spiritual transfiguration happening more rapidly in these early 21st century days amongst our more spiritually conscious human culture – it is literally the emergence of a new human species - discovered through our attraction to direct personal experiences, practices and confessions of the presence of God.

I sense this has been at the root of my life's impulses and choices since the 60’s.

I am not alone – especially here in Northern California - many of us are aware we live in a very unique time in our social cultural environment and our Spiritual evolution - I am drawn to associate with others like myself – who intuit and understand these matters of this movement and our deep attraction to merge into full conscious Spiritual restedness with wisdom – we are being impulsed to learn, experience, serve, grow and to consciously work on and allow these transfigurations to occur in our personal primal nature.

I believe this alive organic movement is deep in the genetic code of our human form.

It is God’s intention and purpose to manifest our awakening.

Thank you for allowing me to work on and express all this – very clarifying.